Attack (definition): take aggressive action against (a place or enemy forces) with weapons or armed force typically in a battle or war.
I have them often. I find I usually have them right before GOD is doing something HUGE in my life. They are awful, down right horrible at times. Attacks are not something I ever want, pray for or desire for anyone…but in a weird peaceful way they make me smile looking at them through God’s eyes. I sometimes become numb in the attack and do not feel the excruciating pain because God allows me to see the attack through His eyes and it better helps me to understand why I am where I am.
The enemy HATES ME! Praise GOD, the enemy HATES ME because I love Jesus! So from time to time the enemy will attack me and try to hurt me so much to convince me to pause, back track or throw in the towel of claiming Christianity. This is the purpose of the Devil: to steal kill and destroy any hope of our eternal salvation! This is how desperate the sick thing is, it attacks us whenever possible, going to great lengths to make us stop loving like Jesus and doing damage for HIS KINGDOM!
I am finally at a point in my life and especially my marriage where I say BRING IT SATAN! God has clearly reminded me, shown me and confirmed that being attacked or “under attack” as many say is a clear gift! Almost a badge of honor that confirms that I am loyal to Jesus Christ and a soldier for HIM!
But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, so that the surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves; we are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not despairing; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying about in the body the dying of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. – 2Corinthians 4:7-10
Right here in scripture God has made it clear, that I suffer because I am HIS and the enemy is clearly out to stop what Jesus does and who claim Him!
A few years ago my husband was addicted to pornography, to the point he was paying for it…the free sinful stuff was not good enough any more. He had it everywhere, every electronic device he owned or could get his hands on. It did not start that way, but it grew deeper because that is what sin does. Sin is seductive and flirtatious, one usually likes the feeling of it, almost a high when we get away with it and we crave more. We crave more and allow more in our lives, it grows like a weed taking over everything we have and are in life. Before we know it we don’t know who we are or what we are doing and are so caught in the sin we feel as if there is no way out.
Sin almost killed my marriage and my husband.
When I say that I am not kidding, the night the Holy Spirit woke me up out of a deep sleep and revealed the sin to me was later revealed by my husband it was the same day he thought about driving his car into a pole at 90 miles per hour on the way home because the reality of the sin he was in presented itself that there was NO WAY OUT!
The Holy Spirit waking me up, saved my Husbands Life!
God saved my Husband’s life because that very next day he easily could have driven into the pole like the enemy presented to him to do. His thoughts could of easily became a reality just like the pop up add of porn that was a thought which became his reality of Sin.
All of the details from that 6 months of my marriage are often thrown at me by the enemy. The sick twisted disgusting details that are certainly not from GOD but only a beast! These are the “triggers” also known as attacks that the enemy likes to remind me of. Thoughts like:
“You’re not good enough, your husband had to look at porn.”
“Your husband likes the way those porn stars look and thinks you’re gross.”
“Your husband is not pure, he still sneaks porn just like you caught him doing before.”
“He didn’t tell you all the truth, there is still more and you will never know.”
“Melissa hate your husband!”
“Melissa you can never trust you husband.”
“Melissa you are not a good wife, look at the lengths your husband had to go to.”
…the list goes on of what I deal with on a regular basis.
The ENEMY hates me, my husband, my marriage, our testimony and our GOD!
He wants us to fail and stop everything we allow God to use us for, so he can win. However the enemy already LOST! These attacks will not win my fight and victory in JESUS! I will not give into them, I will do everything I can to allow GOD to take every thought captive and release them to the heavens to purify my mind and my heart again and again.
I also have many physical attacks, they are how I am attacked most. For example, I have Thyroid disease, migraines, severe hormone deficiencies, weird heart issues, leg pain and that is just the beginning! I am not sharing this to be a victim in any way…I am sharing this because it is real and the closer I get to Jesus the more physical attacks come. Do not be scared by this, GOD protects me and guides me through each and every attack when I allow Him.
ATTACKS… Do you have them? What do you do with them? Do you realize they usually come when something amazing just happened or is about to for your walk with God? Do you recognize them for what they are? Do you allow them victory over you or do you consider them vain attempts by the enemy to stall you or hurt you?
It is time to stand firm and challenge the enemy, say “Bring it!” Have confidence in GOD when you say it ~ a reminder Jesus already won ~ go read Revelation! Bring it! The enemy Hates you because you declare Christ! The enemy wants to test your loyalty and tempt you! The enemy will go to every extreme measure to tempt you, make you stumble and fall! Be ready, get your armor on and instead of becoming a victim rise up and laugh at the enemy in the face, it is a compliment!
Yes, your attacks are compliments. It has taken me five years since our marriage turmoil to get here and some days I want to sleep all day but I will say it again It is a compliment. Be ready the attacks to happen, pray through them and know that when you are receiving them it is because you are God’s Princess and doing something mighty for HIM!
“Be YOU!” attacks and all, don’t hide them, share them and smile looking through God’s eyes when they come and let Jesus take care of you!