A few nights ago I woke up in a panic. I wanted to draw close to my husband for comfort, but anger motivated another response. I pushed his shoulder to make him uncomfortable – like I had awoke – then proceeded to tell him how angry I was because of something he did in my dream. This wasn’t the first time I had a nightmare about my husband and it wouldn’t be the last. I woke up the next night with the same panic racing through my body. I realize that they are just dreams, the unconscious trying to sift through things. However, I have always had such vivid dreams, literally feeling so real, that my emotions easily get transferred over into reality. In the past it has effected me so deeply that my whole day is spent avoiding my husband or responding to him negatively. I am a little better at recognizing that my emotions are just “left-overs” from a dream, but I am still a work in progress:)
I’m not sure where the dreams come from. Some of you may be anxious to warn me that these dreams might be my subconscious picking up on something about my husband, as if he is lying to me or cheating on me. I can tell you that this is not so. These nightmares are far from the truth of my husband’s character, yet I still tend to give weight to them. How do I calm my heart and separate dream from reality? I feel like the enemy was just trying to wedge between us and make my marriage and my feelings towards my husband uneasy. We had to pray against the schemes of the enemy and pray truth into my dreams. So far the rest of my week has provided less threatening dreams. Thank you Jesus!
Being able to rebuke the enemy is not always an easy thing to do. First I have to recognize that it is him, and sometimes this can take quite a bit of time. Then I have to accept the authority God has given me to rebuke him. These are all things I am still learning.